About me...
I can't remember a time when I haven't either been on a diet or have been thinking that I needed to be on a diet. Self loathing would have to be one of the most debilitating feelings and I've got it in spades. And if you're reading this, more than likely so have you to a certain degree.
I just turned 58. I did a weight loss challenge 9 years ago. I started after my dad passed away. I decided that I couldn't control that happening, or my mum passing when I was 13, or my daughter being born with autism. I could however control what I put in my mouth. (at that time at least). I joined in with great enthusiasm. About halfway through my challenge I had a seizure and a benign brain tumour was discovered. As my challenge included a prize of going to Fiji for the finalists I thought to myself 'what a great story I'll have!' Always trying to look on the bright side, maybe because the other side can be such crap sometimes! I had the tumour out 3 months later and I went on as a finalist, going to Bondi instead for a week with an amazing group of people. I shared a room with Carol, one of my favourites, and we tongue in cheek said let's start a bank account to catch up again (we live in different states) and call it our Thailand plastic surgery account! We saved $20 a week and have caught up twice since then. Covid put a spanner in the works in 2020 but we've maintained our chats and still (following the Destination Beauty page on facebook and instagram) have consistently said how we would love to actually do what we'd talked about.
My biggest thing I wanted done was my neck. I'd looked at the Hollywood stars and wonder why they stopped at their face when their necks looked really wrinkly. Even when my weight is down my neck seems to go from my chin down, it's not defined much. I wrote to Destination Beauty asking if they did just neck lifts. They said it'd be a mid face lift, that my jowls would look odd if not. I agree now that I see it. The other thing is my tummy. For me it's not about looking good in bathers or half naked (or fully) it's about having a nice flat tummy when I wear a nice dress or jeans. Of course it all depends on how much I can afford at the time.
I had yet again gotten to the highest weight ever, 107 kgs. I sent my photos to Destination Beauty and said that I knew they couldn't quote on how I looked but that I had a hefty amount of weight still to lose. I think I had lost about 10 kilos by then. The cost came back better than expected. Carol had done, another challenge last year, a shred, and had lost an enormous amount of weight and said she was serious about doing it too. So I decided stuff it, lets do this!
I had to wait until my roster was in for next year and it made it very real when I got the dates. I messaged my lovely liason Kate who booked me in for the 21st of May! I'll do posts on the process but she let me pay my deposit in 3 fortnightly installments which was incredibly helpful. Now I have to fill out my super forms for the tummy tuck side of things. And save like crazy for the facelift. I wanted to write this blog because it will keep me accountable. Plus, I love writing! I have written a blog about my journey with my daughter's autism for many years and I find it very cathartic. I will write more in some other posts and of course about the journey itself but for now I wanted to introduce myself. I hope you enjoy reading as much as I enjoy writing it! xx
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